DeShawn

Before I had a real encounter with God I was hanging around with the wrong crowd and chasing after popularity. During this time I was convicted about what I was doing but ignoring it because I really just wanted to be the big man on campus.

I had an extreme encounter with God at a youth event. Ephesians 3:20 says “Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” God showed me that I need to change what I was doing and focus on things that are really important.

God has helped me with my maturity and I’ve regained my parent’s trust. I also have a new group of friends that build me up and help me see how fun and freeing being a Christian is.

Two years ago, I found out that my husband of 8 years was having an affair with a married coworker. It turned out that they got pregnant while we were married. I was devastated; we had no children of our own, although, I begged God for them. I wanted to end my life. I had no idea how God could make this any better, but like our God always does, He did. I began counseling and more importantly began depending on God for every breath. It was very hard and at times I thought that the pain would kill me. God showed me what I was made of. I drive a lot for work and I have WBCL on and it seemed that when I needed a song it came on. My favorite is Mended by Matthew West. There were so many days where I would cry and scream out to God between appointments. Eventually I would feel His peace throughout the heartache. I learned so much about myself and learned that I was co-dependent on my narcissistic husband, even though he was very abusive. He made me believe that everything was my fault and that he did nothing wrong. I never wanted to lose my family. I did everything I could and more to make things work out but that was not Gods plan for my life.